Cow's Blog

A blog of a cow.

Friday, July 01, 2005


I feel lost.
I can feel myself falling into sadness and don't know how to stop.
I wish I could remember how it feels not to want to die.
But I am afraid I wouldn't be me if I didn't feel this way.
Why am I so broken?
Give me life
Give me pain
Give me my self again

Monday, June 27, 2005

Much Stuff

Hi! I'm still alive!

Having given lots of people my blog address, I thought I should bloody well update it.

I've been up to lots of things, not suprisingly, considering how long it's been since I last posted. I've finished my first year of uni, and although I've not had my grades yet, I'm confident that I've at least passed. I can't believe I've done a year already, it's gone so fast! And although I've moaned about a few things (like that bloody panto, grrr!) , it's been one of the best and most rewarding years of my life. I can't help myself, I love learning! And I'll be doing a Jane Austen module next year that I'm just so excited about... what a sad fucker I am!

What else? I'm still working at a popular supermarket chain, and I still loathe and detest every moment.

I went on holiday with Adam to the Brecon Beacons for four days, and had a wicked time. We climbed Pen Y Fan, the highest peak in south Wales. Here is the view from the summit to the North:


And this is Pen Y Fan from where we parked the car:

Th weather was a bit crap on a couple of days, so on one of these I took him home to meet Aneirin and the folks, which wasn't as scary as it could have been. We drove back to the campsite in Brecon over the mountains (past Llyn Brianne), and I thought I'd include these pictures, as Adam was so very proud of the achievements of his car!

What a beautiful country I am from... even the bits that aren't national park, as these last two pictures show. (But as Adam said, 'they hardly need protecting, nobody lives here!')

I went to a school reunion this weekend, but I think that deserves a post all to itself, which I shall get around to as soon as I can, but for the moment, I have to go to work. Grunt.

Latery, Cows. xxx

PS Hello to any new readers I've gained from the reunion! I love you all!

PPS My parents have finally got around to informing me that they are getting divorced, having already signed the papers. Marvelous. And they decided at Easter, so thanks for keeping Owen and I informed.