Cow's Blog

A blog of a cow.

Saturday, October 02, 2004

Arrrrrgggghhhh my head!

What a weird few days...
I went to the newbies night in tec on Thursday, which proved to be a really horrifically bad night. Didn't get too hammered though, unlike some people.
I had my first lecture at Mickleover yesterday afternoon, and got completely lost on the way there, but got back ok, which is something. I then stopped for fuel at work and my car failed to start, so had to be rescued by Owen. Pretty damn embarrassing, especially as a load of staff I knew all stood around and laughed at me!
Then I went out last night and got wasted, but had a really very nice time. (Thankyou!) Not enough sleep though, gonna try and go to bed at a sensible time tonight.
Right, I'm going to go and eat something and try not to chunder. Latery. x

Wednesday, September 29, 2004

Erotic Lecturers!

Lo all, haven't posted for a bit cos I've just been so stupidly busy! Today was a great day, as it is the first day I have driven to uni and back on my own without getting lost or almost crashing in some way... Go me!!! I've had two lectures now, yesterday's was pretty good, today's was ok, but a tad bit dull. Though, did find out that my lecturer writes erotic literature. Tried not to smirk too hard. Also, on my way home, was following a car with a sign stuck on the back, so drove up close to examine it, and it said "Please don't follow too closely!" Do you think they were trying to be funny? When I was in school I had a sticker on my pencil case that said (in v. tiny letters) "If you can read this sticker then you're standing too close, back off bumface!" Which stopped being funny when I was about 12...

Anyhow, something's been upsetting me recently...

Some of you will know all the crap that goes on between my mum and I, and when I spoke to her recently, she said that she thought she was "starting to turn into me" in terms of being, you know, loose. Well, if you don't know, the way my mum carries on with guys really really makes me want to throttle her, especially as she's married with three kids, so I wasn't too chuffed by her comment. And what really gets me is how she expects us all to just let her do this without being pissed off by it, she completely just walks over us all, especially my dad. And it occurred to be that perhaps the reason that I treat men like crap is because I've been brought up to. But anyhow (nuff ranting about my mother), I've decided that from now on I'm really, really, really going to try to be sensible and nice in my relationships with men, and stop just expecting them to let me treat them like crap and not complain about it... So, new leaf turned over. (Oh, and sorry M. Think you put up with a lot really.)

I'll let you know how this one goes! C. x

Monday, September 27, 2004

Happily ever after...

Well, I've survived the first week. I'm a tad tired, and a tad freaked. I've been randomly depressed recently. I think it's because I expected to be so happy, and really I've just been nervous, stressed and tired. I know that this should be one of the happiest times of my life, but I just don't feel that way. I've achieved so many of my goals, I'm at uni, doing a great course, I have a car, and a license to drive it, but I'm still feeling the same as I was. I just keep thinking that the life I have now is what I left Michael to have, and I couldn't say that it was any better.

I think I expected too much.

Don't forget what happened to the boy who suddenly got everything he'd always wanted...
He lived happily ever after...